"I am trying to sleep without you. Every dream I have is full of your eyes and legs and skin but behind them there's this dread because i know when i wake, the spot where i so vividly felt your warm breath and soft skin just moments before is really empty. You are so far from me. I love you with all my heart. Come back to me soon."
a message jonathan sent me while I was in europe. ive not been sure when or how, but all i've known is that I want to spend my life with him. my life. every inkling.